How did she get here? How did she get HERE? How did SHE get here?
She turned to look back, but the road behind her was a blur of unfamiliar twists and turns. Nothing seemed familiar anymore. She had traveled so far that the idea of going "home" no longer held any meaning; it was as if that place, that life, had dissolved. For as long as she stared, no landmark or memory brought comfort—she couldn’t even recall each step that had brought her to this trail.
Turning forward, she faced the path ahead. What once seemed like a clear journey toward freedom now stretched out endlessly, a winding, rocky road that offered no final destination, only more unknowns. The vision she’d clung to for so long faded like mist before her eyes.
She began to identify with something she has never felt before and it froze her with each breath she took. “Am I lost?” she asked herself quietly, unsure if she even understood her own question—or if she was ready to hear an answer.
She paused. For the first time in what seemed forever, she paused in her frozen footsteps. “Am I lost?”, she repeated again, not ready to hear an answer back. She had come too far to turn back, yet she found herself questioning the vision she had held so clearly for so long.
What if the home she’d left was gone for good, and this journey—this endless, twisting road—was leading her nowhere? What if she’d been following an illusion all along, a vision that promised freedom but left her with nothing but emptiness?
She wanted to believe that she had purpose, that each step mattered, yet all she felt was the stillness of an unknown that was swallowing her whole.
As she paused, she slowly sank to the ground, neither looking back or ahead. She lowered her head looking at the dusty path she was sitting on. Where was home now? She turned inward desperately looking for an answer but no matter where she looked or how much she listened - she was met with a dark emptiness and she began to wonder if this darkness IS her answer she did not want to hear.
What if she had lost the home she once knew and the new home she was chasing was never on this path at all? "Am I lost?" she screamed into the darkness, her voice breaking as tears filled her eyes.
She waited, listening to the silence. There was no answer, only the steady rhythm of her breath. She’d never paused like this before, not once since she began her journey. She had nowhere to go and it was as if there was nothing left for her. Nowhere to be, no purpose, no vision. Tears ran quietly down her face as she sank deeper into this pause, feeling suspended in a space where no plans, goals, or expectations remained. For the first time, she felt there was nowhere to be, no path to follow—and strangely, it felt freeing.
With her eyes closed, the darkness softened, feeling almost warm. She surrendered to it fully, feeling her heartbeat, steady and loyal. “I am still here,” it seemed to whisper, grounding her with a quiet strength. A familiar warmth spread from her heart, a place she hadn’t visited in so long. Her breath grew steady as colors and light began to pulse from within, wrapping her like an embrace.
As she breathed in and out, something shifted, a tiny spark of trust rooting itself deep within her. Being "lost" no longer felt empty; instead, it felt full of possibility. She opened her eyes, but instead of searching the path ahead, she turned inward, where a vision was waiting. And in that moment, she knew—her journey had just begun.
Karin Mekara is a certified Spiritual Wellness Specialist and Soul-Centered Coach, dedicated to guiding others on their journey to inner peace and personal growth. As an Energy Alignment Practitioner, she combines mindfulness, meditation, and Reiki to support healing on a deep, energetic level, helping others align mind, body, and spirit.
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